This is my last night in El Paso. This entire week has been a secret stress fuck; finals kicked my butt, and I barely studied, but I don’t give much of fuck, because I know I at least passed. Logic today was brilliant; we were all freaking out and laughing and working proofs on the board (well, the others were; I sat at my desk, watched, and drank coffee). The weather was the nicest it’s been in a while; I spent some time in the park, lying in the grass, speaking with Eddy, wishing for farm lands and longing to expose myself to the lives of Levin, and Kitty, and Anna, and Vronksy.
The rest of the day was spent packing and cleaning. My dad came around 4 and we loaded the SUV, 90% ready for our trip in the morning.
This feeling is peculiar;I will never see this city again. Today, I felt so happy, so relieved, and ready. Actually ready. Tonight I’ll pretend the sky is glorious because it celebrates my happiness.
